Seems like this pathetic blog is the only place, I can find my solace.
I am not depressed about anything at all, just super confused about every single thing.
I think I owe some people an explanation, but here's an explanation that will never reach their ears.
There are some people whom I honestly can say, I have been very mean to, or bad to. It's not because I wanted to, it's because the situation was too hectic for me to organise my thoughts properly. To them, I appear hot or cold, then I am yes or no, suddenly, I'm in and then I'm out.
I am sorry. If you guys could see this, it's really because I am too used to being strong on my own. It's like I am afraid of people knowing my problems, my everything. So I choose to shoulder everything, if I can't, I'll let it seep out a little, just so that I don't explode. It's not that I am antisocial, just that, I don't know how to start or where to start, or whom to start with.
And at times, I like to keep to myself, it's not because I'm antisocial, it's because I just love the peace and quiet, far away from the rowdy noises and people chattering. I am just a quiet guy whom tends to be misunderstood, that's all. It's not that I don't like to meet people or talk, it just makes my ears more comfortable and I feel relaxed when it's quiet.
